It’s funny how love
Love has always been a barrier for me to overcome.
When you were never loved
How do you know how to love someone else?
Either we love too much
Or we love not enough
Well I don’t know the answer to that
All I know is what it feels like
When you have it right in the palm of your hands
And whenh you lose it
Slipping through the cracks of your fingers
Happily ever after
Doesn’t exist on this path I walk on.
When we kissed
It fellt as if Sambia
Was breathing ashe’ into my soul
Now that she’s gone
I take shorter breaths
Kinda feels like being punched in the chest
You left me
I can’t breathe without you
You ripped my heart from this cage
And set my soul on fire
There are 3rd degree burns traced inside my bones
Get a closer look at what you did to me
Same shit
Different toilet
You pissed on my feelings
Slicing my pain away with a rough blade
The thought has crossed my mind
On more than one occasaion
Strip me naked
And my skin will bleed in the pattern of a chess board
Beautifully etched into my flesh
Now everyone can see the pain I bare
You’ve taken everything from me
I don’t sleep at night
Nightmares shake me awake in cold sweats
T-shirt soaked
Head pounding
Breathing all off beat
So I just sit against the wall
Rocking myself back and forth
Praying that I don’t drift off
It’s like
“1-2 freddie’s coming for you”
“3-4 better lock your doors”
“5-6 Five, six grab your crucifix”“7-8 gonna stay up late”
“9-10 never sleep again”
NEVER SLEEP AGAIN
I swear these bags under my eyes so heavy
They look like black eyes
Pounded into my face by the pain you have caused me
Dont label me bulimic
This food forces itself up whenever you cross my mind
I can’t keep anything down long enough to have an appetite
My stomach twist in knots
An echo of pain bounces around inside my ribcage
I would say that I hate love
But love didn’t do this to me
You did
I walk these streets like a zombie
Possesed by some other unknown force
Spell binding and casting
Inhaled from the air
Maybe she hasn’t stopped working on me
Maybe this is just another one of her tricks to keep me bounded
If so it is working
And we are both losing
So I don’t say fuck love
I say fuck you
Because I have no other explanation for why I feel this way
Give me a heart
And ill break it
my fist
pounds With these words
Smashed
like a paraplegic’s spine
Into a millions shards of broken glass
A heartbreak
is not easily fixed
You can’t super glue this pain back together
Ill slowly seduce you
into a comatose state
And as soon
as your angelic doors open
Ready to accept this gift
My love
I will rip it
from that protective cage
Tare apart your ribs
just to get inside
Ima beast with love
I got a heavy appetite for fresh meat.
Who ever said
pain equals love
They were referring to me
Find a woman
who hasn’t been branded
Scorched by these flaming lips
Across their chest
Who hasn’t felt my palm
on their heart
Beating and rising in heat
I make their pulse snap
Veins pop
Its like little mini seizures
Exploding in the middle of your heart
You’ve never felt a pain
Like you’ve felt my love.
copyrighted 2010 I AM OSHUN
